‚ô• Saturday, May 14, 2011
am still feeling shock from what
he told me during the noon. first thing came across my mind. i texted belle. i was too shock to react from everything. second thing was. another of our common friend. allen. one of my customer. who was her friend. i don't have his num. therefore. i tried finding him in fb. since he's always at central. so... just coincidently, a pr manager tagg a photo of him. i pm him in fb. but. sadly. no response from him yet.
I only saw her twice. twice. and the second was so recent. i knew sth wasnt right cause. it's weird when a "stranger" almost... called you out to drink.. even though it's at my work place. i wanted to talk to her more that day. just that... she got drunk before i could talk to her. as that day.. my shots weren't going anywhere.
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i do feel sad. worst is when he told me he felt guilty. as he felt he could have stop her.. i told him, it's not his fault.. i felt that if a person have the thoughts of suicidal, nothing could stop. maybe days. but not months.
he wanted me to promise him not to do anything foolish. i could feel that he still care for me. but. those who know me. really know me. will know. i've already promised gina lotsa times yrs back. for those who didn't know. I used to have a step sister who committed suicide when i was young. she left a day. before. my. birthday. a wk before she committed suicide, we still played as normal and she told me to take care of myself. gina was the one who know tons about me. the one totally understands me other then yiting and samuel. i told yiting about it. and she told me to go to her wake. which i am still hesitating about it.
actually since last night i have the worst night and i have been feeling weird all day. as though knowing sth would have happen. but. dun know what. thinking that i think too much. therefore i drank till almost dead. sheena came down and she saw me in a pose. awfully funny. -________-!!! she ask me go into the staff and rest.. but... i ran home instead.
and, this time i really dreamt of him. every since moment we had. flashback all the promises and everything. all came back. plus _________. i dreamt of her. us. and how amazing would it be... if i didn't decided to ______________.
T~T i cried even though i am not close to her. nor even know her that well to shed a tear. ):
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‚ô• Sunday, April 17, 2011
Yesterday, Shrylyn text me. she ask if i'll be working at central. indeed i am. she told me she would be going down with ellen. then she added she actually asked him along. but. he didn't want to. i guess he probably he doesn't want to see me. was actually half hoping he'd turn up. though i alr knew he wouldn't come. anyway. belle and sly came too. I though it would be easy to sell like previously. i dont know why. i think i lost the passion to drink. to work. cause. recently, my sales is very very bad. seriously. i cant stand my sales at times too. GAH!
she cant even recognize me and i gain weight ): which i felt so too. belle says she cant recognize me too but she rem my face. WTHHH! -.-" so in short yest was i wear was a shocker? i guess? but...it was jus..a dress. cause i came from pat birthday at M studio hotel.
shrylyn was the first to be drunk. she went back belle and sly stayed on. while im still trying hard to sell my shots with chika. first time seeing her. it should be fun actually but. i dont know why my mood is kinda damped. when the first table i approached didn't go smoothly.
Was waiting for Sophia to call since 1+. she ended poping by at 2+ and waited for me to end work while Josephine help me with my two shots. GAH!
no choice but to leave belle and sly there. cause she didn't wanna go eat. NEXT TIME, DONT PLAY 5-10 with belle. cause that the reason why shrylyn got drunk cause belle keep winning. HAHAHA!
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‚ô• Saturday, April 02, 2011
dont know why ever since i saw that particular post, my heart sank. it's almost filled with hate.
worst is when nth is going right.
still remember last yr how i pranked him and made him shock and upset. he almost come over. due to what i prank him. and almost murder me when i told him april fool.
ok. im contradicting. idk why. FML//
book the tickets a month ago. and now, realised my assessment is actually on the day i am suppose to come back. and it all have to happen during april fool. FML.
was prank early this morning by sophia and april. -______-!! they told me, that april had alcohol poisoning and is in the hospital. -.-!!
secondly. i dont feel well and tot samantha was pranking on me telling me assessment is on 29 april.
FML.
told sop and april about it and.. they are very shock too. now, im trying to call them, but. i think they knock off and no one is answering the goddamn phone. whyyy put 24 hours hotline when no one would answer i waited for 20mins or more alr.
shits.
anyway.
SHE's UBERLY cute lurh! she's from thai working in aura.. (::
taken this yest, central is having cabin crew night. we took of the belts, scarf and hat.
cause it's very irritating.
this post was written yesterday.
i just forgotten to click post. therefore, i continue.
i jus remembered, sth hilarious.
someone agreed with another. but. i dun understand why when he's such a jerk, there's still people agreeing with him. was he even nice? LMAO! WTF? bullshit.
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