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‚ô• Tuesday, May 22, 2012
My allocated space for lasalle show '12
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finally am done with school. XD
am waiting for results (although we roughly already know since we took our feedback already) while trying my luck sending resumes without any proper portfolio..yet.
Finally assessment is considered over.
Finally i smelled freedom.free from rushing and panicking over my assignments for few months. Although i dont like to show, doesnt mean i didnt bother about it.
So our assessment was viva voce kinda set up with presentation. Jus us alone with the assessor. So, i so nervous. But i managed to speak normally i think it was mainly becuse i didnt sleep last night. So i was real tired. Im crappy when im tired. So yea. Done it within 5 mins jus nice. It was the time limit for us as well. Cool.
Am proud of myself for finishing without having any question that i cant answer nor explain that is asked by the panels . But, again... There's nth to be proud of. ): cause its not like im gonna get gd grades worst is. worst. Im not sure if i could pass or not for my BA. ):
drew this few days back using oil paint. was my first try when im having insomnia.
Headed off to JB with one of my friend, K. initially sophia was supposed to join us but she went with Andy and the girls.
i didn't expect that we would head to that very seafood stall that i brought S there in the past cause, i thought that we would eat loklok for dinner. sighh.
that's S fav. seeing that i've totally lose my appetite.
every little thing jus came thru my mind. it's almost like a recap of every little thing.
everything.
that love. that hate. that sadness.
SO, i ended up spamming my friend cigg as though im drinking water. naise.
):
funny enough. K manage to drop all his cash -_______-" asked why didnt he put in his wallet and retarded enuff he say "cause i know ltr gotta pay so save the hassle" lmao! so. end of the day. he drop all his cash and hvn spent at all de lor. stupid.
after that we headed to massage. while on the way. passed by abalone noodle stall and we tried to see if we manage to find sophia jiebin and serene. but no fate.
i laugh like shit while we had our foot reflexology, cause K, freaking told the masseur that we have KIDS AND I PASTER HIM TO BRING ME OUT. WTF? which i didnt lor. i kept throwing the remote controller at him. too frequent ( almost every 5 mins) to the extend that even the masseur ask me to throw at him. HAHAHA!
and LOL. idk why is there a dinosaur on his leg! HAHAHAHA! i didn't even notice. it was the masseur who mention it. and they have this epic conversation:
MASSEUR : "i rem you. you very long nvr come"
K : "WAH. you remember me uh?"
MASSEUR : "er. i don't rem your face. but i rem the dinosaur on your leg."
K : -________-" @P#(&$@#P(&$P@#&$P not dinosaur!
i laugh till i almost teared.
anyway. i cant wait for june. bike. instead of car. it've been so long...
i notice something for the first time.
that smile is a killer.
looks like my MIKE HE JUN XIANG!
*MELT*
but. no. i have no feelings.
STRESS? DRINK BEER!
Eileen doing her work which i was waiting for mt and her. BUT WAIT! look a the beer! lmao!
my assessment set up //
I know. it looks rather empty. BUT good enough for my issue i think? since it's all about spaces.
AND THEN WE SAW STEVEN LIM -.-" i totally recall the sushi pic of his. disgusting. -.-" lucky we already finish eating. cus we lost appetite after seeing him. zzz
and i took my very first NR. it was so scary. i was the only one on the bus. and the last to alight. TT.TT totally freaky!
this turtle is mega cute. cause first time i brought him out and i scared him till he peed on the floor by just stomping my feets in front of him. second time which is this time round, he kept crawling towards me. (::
he has no name yet, im thinking of calling him shhh shhh. =/ or xiao ke ai. HAHAHAHA cause i better no give any other weird names cause, i alr call gina's hammie, bui tehh (fat pig) and ah bui (fatty) HAHAHAAH!
The greatest thing would perish eventually, so do you people.
So does animals.
Alrighty.
Im talking about my project- negative space. How i link everything together.
Humans are born in the land knowing a little. Never would they once consider the feelings of the wild. Therefore im going to link this with my design issue.! Ha! Clever eh?
So its the same as when consumer doesn't understand spaces that are use, they judge them. Hmmm... It does link eh?
So because of all this, they are in danger. Or having an issue. Therefore...
how can i call it work in progress when my work isn't really in any progress?
sigh
seriously all the dope shit that has been happening in my life seriously sucks. but im glad there's still people that brighten up my days. my dad has been pissing me quite alot lately. i'm already racing with time due to my school work. and haven't been having enough rest. eating way too much due to stress. last but not least... caring too much and getting affected by the tiny little things. which should have been the past.
had been meeting Patrick quite often. at times i felt that he's like my DAD! wtf nagg none stop. -.- it's 1:53am and im doing my CPJ. my postcards are not done yet. FML HARD! meeting chau in school in the morning 11am to create our A1 size "poster" to showcase the work for the assessing panels. FML FML FML!
i just feel like drinking everyday. ): it just really bring back every little memories.
This is one of the projs we are doing. and i brought maps... and stuff. which was collected from the past... of me and him.
do you still remember them?
i guess not?
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SIS & I (::
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((((；ﾟДﾟ)))))))
Was asked to go hollywood just because my frien wanna support this thai girl.. But wth im busy seriously. with my essay and stuff and i got so pissed off when ppl step over my head esp when i really cannt make it. Zzz i could tell he is pissed off. But wth man im pissed off as well. Like seriously?! Why shuld i even go in the first place. //
Its like hello?!?! Im not a guy therefore no people would entertain me. i go there sit there self entertain myslf. Then again, i go hm myslf. And stuff. Which person on the right mind with so much assignments on hand would wan to go? Esp im not taking diploma. This is degree man. Not a joke.//
SO I GUESS,
this is the last photo from last mon i dragged my feet out even when im so exhausted sick and with my eye swollen. USED PATRICK NAME ONCE. saying I GO OUT WITH P always but he ask me i give excuse?! wtf seriously. i dont like hollywood. maybe it's else where i might still be going so willingly.
and i am seriously pissed off alr.
give me a reason to not an excuse telling myself to go.//
YOU. YOU. AND YOU. thats it. GOOD BYE i don't need such friends.
Lying to myslf is bad.
Pretending to be fine in front of everyone feels terrible.
Took this pic while ziling was shitting in the toilet some time back.
Very bad. Really. Seriously why. I dont get it.
Packed up almost 24 hr of my time. But still i would think of him. Is it that, i haven pack my time enough or what? ):
Why would people just move on or feelings has changes jus in a snap of finger?! ):
How did they do that?
The only advantage of this is that i lose alot of weight. All of my shorts are too lose.
ah jie bought a share for me when i was at her place...
Totally make me feel so upset. it just remind me of him... looking at that old couple that is being printed in the container make me feel sad. this world is filled realistic people all around..//
Had steamboat at jie place on sat night and... We spent 200bucks on all the ingredients. Hahha!! Totally scary.
gave a few of my questionnaire out. and there's this reply... which is totally epic.
BLA!
Sheena next me about a week back asking me to go jb with them, i told her i'll confirm with her on sat. which i told her ok. on the day itself. i got so shock and rather panicked. cause, i saw that check-in. my mind went blank. i wanted to back out. but... im sure she would kill me. so.. i went anyway.
We went to JB Premium Outlet Store.
NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT THAT PLACE.
some stuff are even more expensive then what sg is retailing at. brands are limited as well unless you are looking for sports brands such as Nike, Adidas, Puma etc.. and. it's so HOT! i could hardly breath. and... i bought nothing branded, just a top and a shorts from COTTON ON! i wonder who would buy there -.-" since i don't really shop cotton on in sg and i have no time at all to even get out, i decided to buy there. hmm, size 4.. im a US size 4 now. im quite shock. -.-" i always buy 5 or 6.. there's even once i bought from mango a size 8 shorts. GAH!
I totally can't believe my eyes.
Struggled so hard not to think of him earlier on, but still.. he just appear in my mind. like a nightmare that haunts me.
life is weird. really//
this is not the first time things like this occurred//
we tend to always heading to somewhere near each other unknowingly and unplanned..//
sighh...
numerous of times, i actually avoided it. cause. i don't know how should i react.
it's like what if i said hi and he just walk past.
what if... sighh...
but, i didn't saw him...// i wonder do i feel relieve or what.. it feels abit bitter though.
It has been a month since everything that happened.. everything just felt like it was just yesterday.
we no longer contact, no longer talk, no longer see each other. that's what he wants i guess// zzz. but. i still think of him most of the time //
im still struggling with my emotions, school works and life. nothing seems going well. although im trying double or triple as hard this sem for sch work. i seems to be stuck somehow. ):
D&AD submission us is earlier then the dateline giving in the brief. which is..... in 2 more weeks. actual brief is march. GAH!
suddenly i have a urge to drink all my sorrows away again. ): 'cause everything is jus an illusion.
Sometimes i would stare blankly not knowing what is going on in my mind. It's pretty scary cause it can happen anywhere, be it at home or outside.
Once it just happened while i was crossing the road and some car horned at me. Idk what more will happen next. Although i would no longer slid my wrist, even the temptation is there. I remembered i promised i would not do anything stupid when someone close to him committed suicide.
First day of school is okay. Cause i managed to submit a rather last min ______proposal which is compulsory to all lvl 3 students.
Awesomeness is when i return to school on time. But the journey to school wasnt that great. Huge urge to text him. Knowing i shouldnt take this first move at all. It's not about pride and ego, its something personal. Sometimes it feels like im back to the state where M and i just broke up those agony that i faced.
although i know, he moved on and most probably already in love with someone else. it doesn't help killing all the feelings i still have.
been so crazily lack of sleep. been sleeping as early as 11pm. till morning. felt so healthy but bad. cus it made me more hungry then usual! ):
now it's waiting to see if i need to re-work and re-submit.
things have been better. a bit.
cant wait till i get back my phone from johnny.
that phone is so scary. T.T cant imagine, there's still water inside after a week. and i constantly use a drier to dry it and place in the rice for 3 frigging days there's still so much water. T.T i jus hope ... can be exchange after his friend change that thing for me!
My topic is killing me. I choose the topic white space as i felt that i know the topic rather well. but actually, i grew bored doing it. T.T
Info graphics of the compiled survey i did on the understanding of white space or rather negative space which is the term used in design.
some of the images i did.
Personally i like this. HAHA! dream catcher.
I'm really trying so hard that i feel that im drowning. but. there's no improvements at all, just because of that post that doesn't even relate to..... ):
School have been draining all of my energy, adding on, i haven't have a proper rest. so tired.
T.T
having headache after hangover since yesterday. so terrible. almost done with B1G1 group project with thao, paulina, mei ting and chau. (: heading off to get more rest soon. although i have been sleeping since last night 6pm? i think. it was so terrible that. i woke up at 8 to do the post cards and... T.T i went back to sleep. so dead. urghs. i jus want this to be all done and get over with.
ok. i know this is quite dumb cause who really bother about diploma convocation right? but since most of my friends ain't continuing in degree, and bitacchhh is going convocation, so jus to poke in the fun and... went?! LOL!!!
THE ENDING PART WHICH ME AND BITCH MISS!!!
THE BA, MA grads throwing of their "hats" cause we was too hungry and went to eat with our "gowns" on. HAHAHAH
