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‚ô• Friday, August 02, 2013
Some time back...
I recieved a pic from my ex colleague. She took a photo of me when i was working. WTFFF!
The pinkish thingy on my hand is the "flower" there's 2 of it. therefore it look so huge like some giant cotton candy. -_____-"
I manage to shed some weight... but i gain them back again -.-"
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Approx. 10 years back Jessica and I mentioned to watch together if Phantom of the Opera come to sg and we did!
I look TOTALLY OMG; as though im so tired, which i am.
So, it was both our second time watching this musical.
I prefer the first one though cus it was the full show - 4 Act.
This time round was only 2 Act, I remember so clearly the first time i watch was approx. 5 hours.
But still it was amazing. (:
We took the CAT A seats. (: totally worth the money.
Brought my Polaroid cam out wanting to take photo with Jess, however, it jus happen I have yet bought batteries and I was late to buy. -.-"
GAH!
SO, during the musical... a friend of mine TEXTED me telling me he has free ticket and he didn't went and he even took a picture of the tic and sent me. I told Jess and we are like WTF! and his seating is free seating but it's at CAT A or B. Felt like whacking him actually.
ANYWAY//
Finally gotten the pinky ring with my size.
I gotten the simple looking band, instead of any design.
Sissy got another upon seeing sth she like too.
Just manage to see these pic in my phone. quite sometime ago. =3
Dearest Santa, why didn't you appear with your raindeers and that enormous tummy of yours? While we got all dressed up waiting for you.
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So I last min pop up for work cause sophia was asking me to accompany her.
so i did. I was mega tired.
So grateful for Karen who search for the attire so that i could work.
Was supposed to me yb and gang but all of us actually flew a plane. HEH!
----THATS ALL EVE---
So, on the actual day, we had potluck at sophia's place. food was great just the turkey. as expected was awful, i seriously do not appreciate how that huge bird taste, but... what's xmas without a turkey?!
so i decided to get it.
I do not know it wouldn't be cooked!
so I had to bake it. ~.~
It looks yummy in the oven but looks decieve. it taste awful.
THE OYSTER sophia ordered was super fresh but dirty! I had to wash them and open them up, the sand was all over the place.
Stella's handmade salad. I swear it taste awesome you will never want to stop eating it.
April bought Flor's xmas short cake. i think it is over rated.
Maybe it's due to festive season so it isn't as good as the commonly seen.
Ikr every one says this photo doesn't look like me. OH WELLLLLL!
I think whenever i see this photo, i will rem what i did to baby kj.
I didn't do it on purpose. i didn't realized till, stella mentioned it. OMGAH!
THIS TIME, reindeer came, but no santa!
Happy boxing day!
Whosoever believeth that Jesus is the christ is born of God: and every one that loveth him that begat loveth him also that is begotten of him
Yesterday was serene birthday, she wanted to celebrate it in butter. so us, the girls went there. it was a great disappointment. It felt so sad how her friends were like and the whole thing was not very well planned.
so, yb called me ytd was shocked. so anyway i met him for like 5 mins outside butter since he was jus nearby. and it feels all so weird.
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today was like a total shag day. headed to sophia's place with chatree and his dog - baby, to kinda celebrate national day.
this is kola with baby. baby look so tiny.
i can't understand why kola love to sniff at baby's asshole so much.
SEE how chubby kola is! zomg.
p/s: did i mention baby actually humped on my feet. -.- and chatree said he hadn't dont it before!!!! and after me, he humped on sophia's then sophia's mum! -___________-!!!
and her mum actually let him hump on her! OMGWARDDDDD!!!
first time ever i see a doc due to sprain of leg.//
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and the doctor actually laugh at me. hurhurhur.
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so, today, while i was surfing the net while resting my foot, i saw this website dealing with clay hands and feet. and i tried searching if they are hiring. but sadly not. they're new in the inds. was so interested that i felt like droping them a mail. which i actually tried to think of how to put it in the mail that im very interested in joining the company. but not long enough i decided to trash the idea away. cause, why would they hire me? ):
its seems stupid to get a design cert and do such stuff isn't? ): frankly speaking. i like crafts more then design actually. i could spend the entire day slowly cutting craft material when i was still in school whereas, when it comes to design i couldn't stand it more then few hours.
some people might say im lazy. but hey, im not just that probably, i lost my passion after entering foundation in lasalle. why don't they have just a course for craft? i think i'd excel in it. HAHA//
so i've been a bummer eversince i graduated i did search for jobs but the pay was relatively low for a degree holder. i felt so demoralized. anyway, my bitch as asked me to go with her to the interview at SIA a month ago. and i actually get to know this cabin steward who gave me his name card while we was talking in NANA. socializing is never hard for me =/ it's always politics that gets me.
i told samantha that i don't wan to. but she was like still asking me few days back. so today i decided why not since i haven't got a job and my application to moe hadn't got any replies since nie has closed the application. ite takes years to reply, that what i heard from my previous lecturers. i wonder if i could get in how funny it would be being colleague.
so what ever job it is. i'm gonna give it a go as long they pay is acceptable. and not. 1k+ for a frigging degree holder. and my 1k+ meant 1.6k
RWAAAARRR//
things haven't been good lately. i read and heard alot about it therefore, superstitiously (not that i really believe) i feel that this year 7th month there's a need for me to do sth about it. cause recently i am really having nightmares way too often about stuff regarding it.
it seems that ever since ________ incident, i change to someone even i myself dont know.
feeling really tired.
been avoiding the thoughts of him floating thru my mind. and i been doing well till last week.
feeling hurt all again.
was so drunk on sat. and i cant remember how or when. i remember calling jason. cause before that i was texting with him. i cant remember did i go hm myself or did sophia send me home. -____________-"
and i fall aslp at my corridor just next to the lift. till jason came and find me. this is damn bad. and i cried like dunno what when i saw him. -.-" i think he was so shock that he dunno what to do also. then funny is. i cry finish i went hm and slp he was like -.-???
why am i so scary. ):
i dont feel happy and ive already forgotten what's being happy felt like.
i wasnt this way in the past. what have i become?
OMGAH... YOUR SINGING IS GODDAMN AWESOME.
YOUR COMPOSITION IS EVEN MOREE AWWEESSSOMMMEEE!
because, i promised not to say who is the singer, i shan't mention here as well.
he's one of the "customer"i met a year back when i was still working night life.
i don't really contact with much.
was browsing his fb when i saw this song.
i pm him straight. omgah la. A-W-E-S-O-M-E.
all i ever do is... drink and drink and still drink.
so... it happen that when sophia andy, his friend and i was going for supper breakfast kinda thing, i went to the toilet.. sober. but... my phone just poooped into the damn toilet bowl. -.-"
my phone just love water! fmlvh.
today the 11th marks another day, which used to be some day.
also, met up with meow meow finally after years, headed to MBS slack then to punggol end. hmmm, the view was quite amazing just that... that place... STINKS!
and it just reminded me of hilltop with him. cause the shores opposite look quite alike to the view in hilltop. just that... this is not a hill but a shore. so... it's not that breathtaking.
finally had mookata which is almost like the wan i had before in bkk. it was awesome.
Headed to aura last night with belle. Was so unlucky. Walked out to take a train and halfway. -.-; it have to rain. Theres this china passerby was so nice to shelter me all the way to station. Then worst thing ever happen my heels have to broke right when i reach station and train was just there. Zzz called belle while changing from my torn heels to boots. -.- brought along my boots cus i Was intending to work initially. Hesitating though.
Ended up. I didnt work. I think im not used to working anymore cus i stopped too long. Very funny. They cant stop laughing cus i told them my heels broke. Damn suay. ):
Then after drking. Belle was soo high initially till she look at me eat my breakfast cus i haven eat much yest. I had sandwich in the noon but i puke everything out.. We talked so much la. I think for 2 hrs nonstop. -.-;; some stuff its really so hurting. Really. Till now i feel so lost. ): sometimes i wonder why can i have the mentality of any issue related to money isnt impt. But... Sometimes being realistic is like a better choice. So you will not get hurt. But im already stuck in here. Unescapable. ): i think i could even give up everything i have.
He said his ex, would just let him go after break. Now i understand why. Cause theres other people(s) involve.i feel so weak and dumb that i couldnt be like them. Heard that he said some of my friends are siding him as well. But i believe not everything entire has been told. I feel so upset when i know that he wants people to choose a side. Its almost like a war. Which i didnt even want it.
There's sometimes deep down i hope when he get high or what would text me like how i always used to. They say
The non-sober person is always the truthful.. But it always never happen. Now.. Its even more impossible.
Sometimes i feel that God (if theres any) is playing with me.
it has been so long. so long since i step into aura, so long since i dance.
ever since that week i got so drunk and drop my phone and make him so pissed off.. i decided to get out of nightlife. but things wasn't going the way i want it to be. and even so, i decided. i am not going back. night life is like taking drugs constantly. an addiction. an effectuation.
there's are so many things we used to plan. too many. that i hope i cant forget instantly.
drowning myself with boozes to try not to remember anything. although i didn't get drunk, but it just happen to make me remember more then when im sober. WTF.
me and my yrs back baby.
over rated.
luck isn't on my side. ever since. last week, all misfortune just kept knocking on my door. nonstop. that im feeling extremely exhausted.
the purpose of life, has been void.
lost that i don't even know what am i going to do next.
when a plan failed.
things just fall apart.
how much more have i gotta fix the mess that has been created in my life?
just how much more?
sometimes i really hope it's going to be the end of the world so...
nasty people could just stop their doing.
stop adding more people that is being hurt into the world.
just how much more it has to be. till things will be better?
SAW my location?
ziling asked me to send her my location so she could tell me how to walk over to her office but...
iphone detect me in the reservoir. WTF? maybe my soul is there. dead.
I started to feel, actually he don't know that he has actually changed he whole attitude towards me. it's almost as if, everything is being pushed to me jus because of my "job". a job everyone feel it's indecent. i dont know why, he have to really bother about what people said or how he actually feels when actually, it's the only source of income that could earn... and with my busy schedule of datelines from project in school. Especially, i started not being able to understand more.. when that day, he say.. "you should know i can't settle down...etc"
seriously, well. i don't know. i told jason about it. as i wanted to see how a guy opinion will be. he said my job is very WTF and not decent as what most people would feel. after telling J that he actually told me in text he cant settle down, J was wondering... if he cant settle down, he actually still wanna bother so much about my job. actually i started not to uds too.
adding on. from what i've told J about his mum would text him saying stuff like if he's gonna be hm late at least inform.. when it's still very early for a saturday.. J feel so much that im like an outsider and he and his mum is in a rs. (i felt so too.) if it were to be last yr his mum does that, i.. can't say much. cus i meet him almost 75% a wk. now... i only meet him for 2days. that's all. and it's pretty unfair isn't?
he care towards me had change. he still bother about me. but. it's no longer how i feel at times. it've turn into.. why i haven been going school on time. why can't i sleep a normal human hrs. why hvn i been asking my lects if im lost with my work.
GAH! ):
ok.i think it's time for me to wake JX up and go study liao!
THIS IS YUUKI (:
with sophia heels.
so gay!
oh ya did i mention he's flying back to japan next wk? for his op. sheesh!
cause i've been thinking what should i say for the whole night. -.-"
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btw, mummy and ah feng says that they saw someone that look exactly like me on monday. and they though it was me that the actually tested by saying sheena name. but.. sadly it isn't me!! HAHAHA!
they even added that her behavior and the way we speak is the same.
i can't say they see wrongly cause it happen during the day..
Shall start updating about wed. headed to attica for samantha birthday. ok. actually jx and her have the same birthday. save my time. HAHA! im pretty lazy to get out.
me & JX
Gotten Samantha a vibrator and.. awesomely. it's rather ex. GAH! almost one day of my pay. ok anyway. when i saw her. i saw her holding on to sth similar. i mean the "wrapper" and it was from liting and her bf. ok. it was then we realised that. we got the stuff from the same shop!! (they got her some candy panties?) HOLY. it means everyone know her drive is very high. -.-"
had some drinks and we left. headed with jx over to look for her friends at dolly. ok. i prefer there. alot. too old for clubs. or rather it make me feel sick. get in drink and we started playing games. and she keep losing. therefore. she got drunk so fast that i cant stand it. -.-" so we went to eat and head hm.
thurs, headed to oceans to look for sheena and, i got so drunk due to drinking with empty stomach. then we headed to aura. I don't rem seeing April. HAHA! i only know i did saw her when sophia told me that. XDD horrible.
woke up in the toilet. and fml i cant rem how i got hm. sheena told me. I WALK UP MYSLF. AWESOME. =.="
and she told me we went orchard K after aura. and i think i was alr a goner at aura. LOL she told me i look very sober. -.-!! till i suddenly got missing and decided to squad dwn to puke. -_______-;;
slpt the whole of fri away. due to hang over. sat was awesome. met up with carrot. headed in to kulai. and we got lost while coming back. almost reaching malacca. i think, the other two rider + pillion are shock. cus, we are the only one in like tee and shorts. plus slipper. HAHA! and carrot cant stand me. cause i kept going down cause i could feel my helmet is flying off and i got irritated.
HELLO, sleepyhead.
went in again on sun accompany jx to get her pills and came back being awefully shagg. slept early. and reply him when ever i saw his text. although i ignore one of my cust msg. and creepy enough. that moron called at 3+ and woke me up. cause i wasn't feeling very well jx past her virus to me. GAH!
and worst is he creep me up. by telling me he's jus below my blk. WTF?! and asked what's my unit num cause he got me food. -.-!! i think, im like glutton to everyone. CRAP. i got freak out and told sheena and sophia. -.-"
ok i shall head back to slp before i really feel like cutting my head off. due to the flu plus coughing.
This is just for a shoot. was helping one of my friend for her portfolio.
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When is the last time you feel happiness? worry-free?
when we are still a kid, we want to grow old faster. but.. when we are older, we hope that we are still young and worry free.
i started to wonder, if i never ever think of stepping into night life, how would my life be? now it seems to be all screwed up. terribly screwed up.
there's so many what ifs.
regreted stepping into such a complicated life. cause, i am starting to feel that im losing myself. being in this industry brings me so much experience that sometimes i would start to wonder is it that necessary.
and dont look at me as though i'm only saying. i meant it. seriously, stopping weekends already. i started working weekends due to central. from just friday. to both fri and sat at times. think back. i could have sleep more. and actually i don't know why did i start working week end last month. zzz -______-;;
i wonder if i had a chance to choose again would i still walk this path.
sometimes i look at my photos and realized no matter how happy i smile or laugh my eyes ain't looking happy at all. it's too fake.
i feel that sometimes im just like a clown trying to make everyone happy but yet, me myself is not happy at all.
tons of people have been saying im too naive. but seriously, am i? i don't think so. urghs. haven't been sleeping since yesterday. feeling way exhausted. yet way down. this weather is too sucky. i cant really sleep.
dont talk to me about art/design and anything if you don't understand it. it just pissed me off.
esp you didn't see my works. dont come and judge me. saying seeing me is a representative of my works. WTH seriously. moreover don't come calling me middle of the night. so what if i have yet sleep?
WHO ARE YOU TO SAY SO MUCH AND APOLOGIZE? and then tell me you ain't drunk obviously you are. cause no one would judge a person work by the looks.
seriously it just pisses me off very much.
YOU DON'T KNOW ME.
needn't even say about my works, cause i hardly show people. unless it's in school or people im close to for some critics, if you are thinking, trying to use you brainless and retarded words can make someone happier or what. you are wrong. AWFULLY WRONG.
Haven't apply for the test yet. hopefully i can get it done tomorrow. GAH! very busy lately. i don't know what am i busy with but. yah, i seems so busy.
headed off to dolly with victor and wei jie on sun. brought JX along. cause im having a sleep over at her place. they came over and fetch us to Jx place and we decided to do a last min make up. and headed down. as they are waiting at the void deck. it was horrible as, i haven't get my ic back... and worst.. i didn't bring passport. so, i... ended using her ic. LMAO! since Mhd sultan days, i have been using her ic. i've never expected that... even when im already enough age to get into a club, im still using her ic. -_________-;;
first they asked for my ic, i called vic and wei jie. we lied saying.. it was in the car. so we went out... and she pass me her ic. they went in first and then followed by me. WOHAAAAHH! i get in. initially belle wanted to drink therefore she text me ard evening but i have no programme at that moment so, i told her not sure.
coincidently, vic and weijie was at Jasley wedding. and they didn't realised that.. i know her. WTH and it's like WE ARE ALL FROM THE SAME SCHOOL how could i not know her. actually it feels weird cause out table only 4 of us, with one btl of 1.5l martel, then came that CANNON. -.-!!! so it's like so GAH?! then came wj friend. and then ended up, weijie anyhow grab a random girl to the table. and shockingly, SHE CAME ALONE. i rem her name. lily. cause i wanted to laugh. who the heck will go alone to a live band club. and without drinks. WTH?!
then, there's this uncle opposite me, he kept giving me drinks. LOL! so, i kept going over and drink it up. HAHAHHA! when, we are going back, guess what. HAHAHAHHA! dunno wad weijie do to his car, and we didn't go with him. we went with his another friend, we went to find him. he bang his car. on the curb. and his bumper dropped. loled.
ok. end of story.
mon, when i was working at aura, i saw lebon, again. felt weird seeing him, so i avoided his table. and then worst. i saw my ite lecturer. -_________-;; i was like omGAH! it was Donn. someone i never expected to see in such places. !!! he was so shock to see me, and he almost bang his head on the podium, when he know that im working there. HAHAHAHHAH! seeing his reaction make me laugh like mad.
ok. goodbye night life soon. very soon. i'm starting to feel tired of everyone in that industry.
