‚ô• Wednesday, May 25, 2011
What's the IN thing now?
Dancers quiting nightlife. LOL!! one by one.
yay!
Labels: dancer, nightlife.
Blogged @ 9:47:00 PM
‚ô• Thursday, March 24, 2011
im not defending you because, if you seriously bother why not go confront her if you think she reject you. why bother to say stuff behind her back? WTF? not because im close with her im saying this. but. look at yourself. so political. yucks.
com'on. we know our limits ours size our looks. don't you? if you know you are huge, (ok im too) but at least u would know why if you are rejected. look around. you ever see your size people around other then "those area" cause he don't bother about huge or wad as long you can sell. but. look again. ever see in nvl, rcd, d8, nana, girls in ur size? since alr know about the size, then why blame others if you get rejected? roflmao?! bitch. you call her that? maybe u shuld call urslf that for being so bitchy. (:
ok. time for me to get back my previous weight again. i've gain weight ever since i got so stress with school work. and not having enough rest cause someone took of her schedule so i help out by doing her slots but she's back (: so, everything will be back to normal. (:
yest replaced Elise for a roving event. the pay is good. better then being a dancer serious. it was so awesome. just that. the enviroment sucks cause, COFFEESHOP WTH. and i think i smell like it yesterday. after roving i rushed down. i was so late. so late. lucky sheena cover it for me. i told her in the evening though. cus, im abit broke due to pay not out yet. no it's not 1 wk pay it's 2 week. so yah. ): and elise passed me the pay in cash before i work. (::
kept spending and lending people money and i didn't realised. worst. my friend can still forget she borrowed from me. cui ttm.
it was actually quite great seeing karen yest at aura, she came down with madeline. and OMGAHHH!! sophia make me so paiseh la. she keep telling me her name is mac-queen i don't know how to spell it. and... yest, she told me im madeline ><!! LOL! and. everyone laughhht cccuuuuiiiiii! so embarrass.
so after work we went down to butterfly which was a rd across aura i suppose? i cant rem. i jus followed sheena. saw jack there, as well as lookers manager or wad de. LOL! i kept talking. aiya. wadever. i cant be bothered cause i know they sucks so from my point of view i just say what i like. (: i cant be bothered.
cause, actually before i had this conflict with my previous agent, alot of boss/managers already ask me not to work for him cause they think i work too hard and he deduct pay ok. yes i know im late but if i can sell u still wan deduct me so much? you should give chance or maybe deduct lesser. plus i was sick that day and it was raining there's no cab in that area and i tried to run there. i was drench lor. they even so nice that. LOL, my drinks are normally coke or orange juice. MUAHAHHAHAHA! =D i still rem few weeks back when i was working at hollywood i saw upub boss and manager and ah 5, LOL! WE ALL JUMPED UP AND DOWN! HAHAHAHAHA! WTFF i know. LOL! ok. they are great people. nicest of all i've seen.
Labels: dancer, lookers, upub
Blogged @ 2:37:00 PM
‚ô• Friday, December 24, 2010
worked with joline. she says, she kanna spike and was having a headache since 1am. accompanied her till bout 1.45am and i continued to work. and i gotta work alone. till the time to knock off.
seeing her in that state. im feeling very lost really. i felt so much like crying. but i can't. i don't like showing my emotions out. really. i detest it. even when i was upset while i was with him, i would cry silently beside him. while he's asleep.
i cant stand the pain anymore. everytime, i would feel like slitting myself to forget about the pain. although i only did it once. no twice. first was 5 yrs back. and second was a mth back or few weeks back..
im really living aimlessly recently ever since i get to realize alot of things.. i would just walk and walk and bang on sth, i didn't even notice. i've done it twice today. having bruises all over my knee.
sometimes i wonder, why wouldn't that damn car jus bang on me. Straight. so it's either i survive it with the pain or jus go and never feel the pain any more. people know me well would know, im not like this. never once i have such thoughts going thru my mind. sometimes it really scares me alot.
how did i turn myself this way?
why whenever i realize things. it's too late?
i felt like leaving this place. that's full of sorrows and regrets.
called sophia helplessly earlier on. telling her the situation and i doesn't know what to do. cause they are normally drunk after me. i really don't know how when i don't know where she stay.
i'm exhausted from every single thing that is happening.
felt like quitting school already.
i lost everything just in a year.
e v e r y t h i n g .
i would give my life to anyone.
if i could.
Labels: dancer, lookers, S
Blogged @ 5:32:00 AM
‚ô• Friday, December 17, 2010
people change for the worst when they think that they are almighty.
this time, it's all about money and looks and fame again. wtf. i had enough of hearing all this. i just dun get it. really. ok. why would you wan so much money when money could only buy short lived happiness? now, when ever i think of money, i felt disgusted at times. how singapore would make all the citizens pay huge loads of it. and made us all suffer. thinking back, although it's not so high tech. but everyone is doing great. now? look again how many homeless fellows out there that starve? Humans are so skeptical.
please wake up your mind. before, everything turn sour. sigh.
had a dream earlier on, and i woke up and to check my phone. no new message. ): i tot, he really did text me. dreams doesn't come true isn't? it was so real that, i tot i ain't dreaming. and this sucks. really.
probably he's enjoying at batam already.
it feels so much as though he went for a double date. sighh.
OMG. i miss strawberry oreo! ):
only indonesia has it. gah!
Labels: dancer, randoms, S
Blogged @ 2:17:00 PM
