the question that i kept asking myself.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?

for almost a week, i puked gastric juice, just when i tot im fine alr cause yest was ok. feeling so much better. but it have to get worst. i puked blood just now. ):

WHAT I THINK IS HAPPENING IS...

I DRINK TOO MUCH?

anyway. yest met up with jie and di. Actually i had my lunch with samantha alr. cause i was too hungry. but still i dragged di down. LOL! so i had round 2 but i cant finish it. even though it's like small portion only. jie wanted to eat Manhattan Fish market. so we headed there. she was very rush. finish eating she left. -_______-;; so i watied with di till evening cause he's meeting py and reb. was too tired to join them. GAH.

work was ok on fri. but when it come to sat. nice one. i cant sell my shots. very bad. i wasn't feeling well as i vomited blood earlier on, so i dare not really drink that day. Candy was nice, to help me out. very grateful.

then sheena was drunk. and i laught so hard at her. she fall on the bushes outside marina mandrine hotel. sophia and i was like !!! then she turn and look at us and all of us laugh. after falling she kept saying "im very wet leh. eeeee. tissue. very wet lor." HAHAHHA! funny to the max. not that we wanted to laugh at her falling. we can't stand the funniness when she drunk. im the most sober that day.

and this is what happen when we reach timah rail way mall.




gahh! unpleasent.

speaking of that. the pg at avatar CMI.

Labels: baobei didi, precious jiejie

everyone knows. you are only the one that probably doesn't.

alright. im hurt. after i accidently saw the comments. yes im not going fb for a period of time.
anyway. sophia bday celebration at nana was great just that i was way too exhausted and i fall asleep. and i realised i always fall asleep. seriously i think im lack of sleep severely.

Labels: baobei didi, S, school stuff

i know, i should feel happy for you.

Labels: baobei didi, S

so much stuff unspeakable.

thurs meet up with yt as she gotta collect her lappy, then we headed to do some shopping and went to UOB building to look for rebecca to get my tie dan that i asked her to help me buy from taiwan. for bf as he said before he loves to eat it. a surprise, but... he dint seems surprise by it. -.-" idk. he don't seems like he appreciate it from me. -.-"

and headed home. looking forward to fri meeting didi. hehe..

cabbed to school, as i couldn't wake up. like usual!

Met up with didi right after class end. rushed down. as my class ended an hour later then it could have ended. GAH! headed for lunch at this indian shop in little india. it's awesome. almost awesome. it they could have replace that chicken curry to mutton curry!


Then he passed me something i did not expected. cus, he have been searching for this agnes b locket that i've said that i wanted... for almost a year, as black is always out of stock. which is why. and... he found it in taiwannn!!! (:: TEEEHHHEHEHEH!

Catch a movie with him then i headed home. soo guai! =X
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Now, i just hope i will not have chicken pox. cus, bf brother in law is having it. and, i went over as usual, and... and... -.-" now im scared. I haven't have it yet. GAH! ):

went out the whole day. Idk why, everything seems very very different.



That fellow took ages to get my stuff down from his home! and those malays i dont know WTH are they thinking. keep saying hello to me! WTF?!

Labels: baobei didi, S

ok. because, im abit guilty, after what he told me, i went to his blog after so long of not going in, and i see such stuff. -______-"

it just take one sentence, to make me stay actually but. it never came out. never. but it doesn't bother me much, because, i felt it's the right choice. that was yesterday.

if, fate allows, and he's there, i would had hug him and apologized. but. no, he wasn't cus he reached home. it's fine with me, still hesitating. till i reach home, saw that entry, im so pissed off now. not because, he says im ridiculous, but because, he said it that, it doesn't matter since i said those stuff yesterday. which make me more pissed off. because, if it doesn't matter, then don't wake me up in the morning acting so nice and text me saying i'm treating him coldly. isn't take fake? i had feelings too, be it how harshly i said things. I know yesterday, was my fault for being pissed and some nonsensical issue. but. don't blame me cause, yes. i was interested. so i read everything frm the start. so i already knew quite alot before we met out for dinner. and. remembering there's once he said he wants to meet out with me, but he have yet got his pay blablabla. and he said sth watch watch _____ together, but a week later i saw that particular entry saying he watched with _____. i got real upset. so i already told myself, this is crap. guys are just way good at giving excuse. i tot we were friends. friends don't lie. more ever don't even say things that you wouldn't do.

month past, we are still chatting like nobody business, though i told myself just friends. we met up and went out. before that even happen, he confessed saying he likes me. but i think that's all crap now. likes me? bullshit.

i started not having security when ______comment. because i felt that "that business" was never ended. BLA! this is all crap. all crap! how do u accept it when in the first place u know nothing. all u know was ______ was someone he know frm his poly class. and he likes her, but gave up cus, everyone says ... i cant rem what he told me before. and he felt so too. WTF man.

remembering, Vday, i actually wanted to give him that box because he said sth. that's because he said it. i made it. because i dun believe he meant what he said and i doesn't want to cause any false hope, and i said, i wanna give samuel. then sun bian give some to him. but. no. i did not met up with sam, so i did not give him any. neither did i save any for him. the only one who ate was my cousin and cousin in law, maybe my aunt. not even HIM taste it. But now, i seriously think this is all crap. so many times i thought he would tell me things bout his past be it good or bad. but none. i know nothing. except to find out myself way before we got together. you said, u guys broke off a yr? crap. that's only few month away. unless you are telling me it felt so long. that you doesn't even know how to count months with your fingers. since u don't tell me stuff, i find out stuff assume stuff to be. so what not happy? HA blame yourself. you would never know how f hurt i was. but i struggled and be with u, struggled with you and then facing all those reality everytime i work cus, everyone tell me, "you should get someone better, that could take care of you, guys are supposed to do so." manage not to listen to it everytime. though i always hesitate whenever i hear that.

whereas, yes, i lied saying me and him broke up on nov when he came back? no. everything ends way before that, it's just too complicated to be said. and i was pushed away hardly by him when he drew a line to it on nov.

this is how much i hid maybe there might be more but i can't think now. wad's this compare to what your sms of u saying how much small little stuff u did, i've said everything out. be it good or bad. even the worst i told you which only sophia know everything. what more do u expect. since I've made up my decision on thurs, and you took it. i shall live it up. this will be the very last entry with that label. I've nothing to do with your life anymore. dreams, good luck. Girls, good luck. life, All the best.

things that u given me, i wouldn't throw since u made a huge effort in spending ur hard earn pathetic pay, if ever see this post, and want them back, tell me i would pass it back to you. but sth that i wanted to give you when i have time to complete, i'll throw that tiny lil thing off, since, it's never gonna be yours. i wouldn't give anyone things that weren't meant for them.

i realize now to never ever place someone on my priority list other then my baobei and jiejie that has stay there un-move since the day i know him. that's so far the unchangeable things in my life. sometimes, i think back, i wouldn't know what to do, if i never met him. guess jie jie would keep murdering me. =X i miss hanging out with him noowww! it's just like sth pull us together no matter how long we did not contact.

me loves samuel.
he says it. the affair. lmao!

Labels: baobei didi, S

I think, i've got a crush or sth. but this feelings ain't going away! ):

Labels: baobei didi, S

This is what i did last sat during work

Labels: baobei didi

Met up with meiling and peiyong for dinner at Big O then headed for a movie. after that wanted to go Rachada to look for sophia, waited for like 20 mins she never reply so i headed down to BQ to look for cynthia. had a wonderful Christmas. with all the wishes. although not much but still yes, im happy esp the part on the bet who is the "Ass". wth. im on the dot can?!! wth!

Sophia headed to BQ to find me for supper. (: it was then, I received a text from him, asking where am i.. after eating, shuhui and sophia headed to NANA whereby i went back to find Cynthia. I wanted to go to NANA with them but, Cynthia looks so not okay. Saw Sharon, Dawson and Sze Kuan while on the way walking back to find Cynthia. OK. i admit i cant recognize them. =X I saw this familar looking person sitting on that chair. then i kept looking even walk past then i decided to see if it's Sharon anot. i tapped and lucky i din't recognize wrongly. (: been long ever since Alex grandpa car incident. woohooo. ok. first qns sharon ask me is the same old qns, really end alr ar. wth.

anyway, Im still hungry. bla!

ok. bbdd says he getting me that lock I wanted (: am happy. yays. and I'm getting him that white headphones. (:

Labels: aaron koh, baobei didi, S

met up with jx for a movie today and like always, im late and we ended, missing the time for that slot. while on the way, i saw Elson, a name, i nearly forgotten. someone who always challenge me when we were in primary school. it's like some dejavu when i saw him. seems to see it somewhere. wadever.

because Ronald randomly texted me asking me for her num, it make me pissed off remembering what happen 5 yrs back. Steven that idiot.. nvm. wadever. (:

i received a sms from him asking where am i, suddenly my heart just sank.
once again, all the memories came back, i still remember that faithful day we met, march 15 2007. things have been so wonderful. it was as though yesterday that i met know him. but it had been a long journey for us. now, it's alr 2009. for God knows. ):

ok. not gonna think and rant out. i know, jie and di dotes and love me most that enough. im contented. nothing matter. (: i love them from the bottom of my heart.

recently, gotten quite addicted to.... =P
waiting for jie to come back frm KL. and for di to book out after she returns. (: shall gather up again. YAYS!

Insomnia at night. T.T i couldn't sleep due to things daddy had said. ):

Labels: aaron koh, baobei didi, precious jiejie

randomly, someone speaks to me again. i'd be happy if it were to be 1 week ago.

things happen alot at home. im totally exhausted by it. finish all the stuff in office on sat. Went back to wrk and me bb dd at bugis. he help me to carry 100+ mails. to the box. and we sent off.

was feeling all rubbish at mac, and we doodle on the receipt..


pls dont judge me by my looks.

Labels: baobei didi, remy

thank you for always being there when i needed you.

I CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY! =DD excited. very. yes. very excited. =DD
somewhat i dont really look forward for tues alr. =X

Need new cloths, Jacket for this festive?
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the collection pieces are limited.

Labels: baobei didi

Cheers to all the fond memories we had kept deep down,
drink all the unhappy moments down
drunk and forget everything that moment.
for that moment, everyone is happy.



met jr and went met his friend John. give me the feeling of some holy person. but. so unholy, becus he anti Christ? i think? and his name is such a holy name. =X cus it's like in the bible. wadever.

me and jr


saw xt outside power house. soo happy. like finally a girl i know that is at ph. =.=" met mian and di outside as well. mian and jeremy chew, brought some horrible liqour there. taste disgusting. eeeeek.


me and di


finally met, weiwen, wenhao after so long. they came with jr (: yays. yest like some sec school gathering for their batch lidart, so many 1987 kss de. XDD weeee~! but no pics. cus they left early to rebel.

was way high at 1+ cus mian gave me vokha neat. and some ppl gave me martel neat. then earlier on, i had beer, liquor and so on. i texted nonstop with xt, and jr, we are like so freaking near but i we text. i think i did sth stupid last night, to send an sms over to someone. -.-"

1022 is loves. rofl.
that's if u know what i mean.

duhhh. bad choice to run about. mian was like a smoking machines last night he smoked non stop. and this is how cui he look after he smk and drink.



THIS IS THE LONG AWAITING MOMENT for JOHN and idk who. rofl

Labels: baobei didi, remy, unusual sat night

suddenly, i felt my life is full of beautiful and wonderful people and things that had been sparkling throughout. (:

out of the blue, di called me to talk. was real surprise. recently, things had been wonderful. real wonderful that i hope things will never change =D and stay this way. (::

jie had been there for me which give me loads of comfort. ^^,
di and i have plans for "getaway"
Sophia, again was there to crap with me
Carrot as well, totally horrible talking to him.
Alex, he was so sweet to bring me out for supper and it turn out everything was a joke. =X
winston, was there to distract me with his probs. =.=" HAHAHA
kalson was there to... um.. tell me he was born in the jungle like tarzen. HAHAHA!

ok. gugu i misses u.

okay just with them, life is wonderful and great.

ok. now i jus hope, my fcuking mum jus disappear this moment. am extremely angry about it right now. it'd be more wonderful i suppose. when i would never have any fear that, my fav or sth i adore get cut away and become a new creation of hers! am so sick of all this nonsense. she've been giving me. so sick of it. get lost.

Labels: baobei didi, my mother is a bitch., precious jiejie, winst0n

i dont know what am i feeling alr. dont know what i want suddenly, after talking to jiejie, i felt devastated. things have been happening way too much and so much idk of.. suddenly i felt a infinite distant. which i dont wan and never thought it will really happen to us.

to think of it. WE DONT HAVE ANY PHOTOS TOGETHER! as in only us.

Labels: baobei didi, precious jiejie

i cleared a pic from my treasure list.. been quite some time. SAMANTHA, GOOD LUCK tml. (:

im pretty lucky my assessment is on FRI, (:
but unlucky, im so dead cus, i never had the mood to do anything of my assignment. BOOO.

im very lucky, i had sam with me throughout my good and bad times throughout the days i know him. very glad. if not i guess I'll be so dead. love him soo much (:

why did u ask me how are u when you would show me your famous temper at me. things couldn't be good for me, be it assignments, school stuff, home, rs, everything is at the peek of it's downs.

Labels: aaron koh, baobei didi, school stuff

couldn't wake up for school and ended up gotta cab to school and the cabbie uncle irritated me. ZZZ! super angry and shag so lazy to argue with him. so i shut up and slp. ROFL!

ok. i'll rem to bring "benjo" to school tml. was supposed to bring but i forgot to place in my bag. which was tooooooo small! >< cus my CPJ filled my whole bag. nb

tml am going to print all the image for the saul bass proj , mt, belle and me did. hopfully i can really catch up. though lomography im done with my concept just need to be approved and i'll print it out and make the final. (:

i miss seeing ur IM name sooo fcuking much cus u farking ain't online for sooo farking long. =S
HAHAHAHAA! ok. school work is driving me mad. XDD

Labels: baobei didi, school stuff

some people just remains unchanged and unmovable.

[:

storyboarding is... halfway done (:

now,
left final for book cover, final for storyboard, final for POP up card, filled up all the missing img and research for my CPJ, the bunny, the portfolio, print out of lomography, and experimenting for typography (:

shit. seems like there's alot more work to do. boo!

Labels: baobei didi, precious jiejie

♥21-10-2009
cut my hair and my fringe is way disgusting!!

samuel was super sweet. he called me at 9+ jus to wish me happy birthday before his light off. (::

went dbl o with yt and ppls. our plan is, dbl o then zouk. but it turn out after dbl o we cmi to zouk and i rem calling alot of ppls but i couldn't rem who i dialed. that night was fun. met some ppl (: and then we started to drinnk like water. then i rem i went to the toilet wanting to puke but i ended up puking on the wall like merlion. XD

♥22-10-2009
met hy and we was almost late. the reason is due to me. drinking too much and having a hangover which ended i dint went school for submition and gotta rush down before 2 and then. BANG! lecturer was missing and went to search for him.





reach KL at night


ok. this is cute. a hair dryer in a drawer.


Both of us was soooo hungry. ok. mainly i think it's me. cus the day before i only ate, yogurt, sandwich and a donut. cus... yt ate alr. ): so i ate like... say.. .two bowls of rice?


went to the market. i felt both of us have the urge to waste abit of our money off. because what we bought are all unnecessarily items. i bought perfume. super unique the bottle shall post it soon. after that we headed to KL ZOUK!




Before entering they screen our temperature with a torch look-alike




that place is heavenly fun. =D i did not drink any alcohol and im uber high. >< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZFLSkhnzxhz8wEfd2Ztd5awW50q7JFJIB1F8RtRU_lq82cgjoeVIbOQRTHlb3QfljAbPrz-VuKw8GWJIFVdy7eR2hvqu6JA9XKtTdqeKac97_obRPTabwifDobRBpTq64xbW-/s1600-h/DSC05212.jpg">

♥23-10-2009 woke up early in the morning for breakfast. im still way hungry.

hers,

mine,


HAHAHAH! am trying to look forward for A&W which was what i expected for throughout the whole trip! which mission fail. and ended having delifrance for dinner! ): mine
hers


our supper while waiting for time to sleep cus it's hy birthday when it strike 12am. (:
minus the bagua. HAHAHAH!

it's me and bagua now. HAHAH! XD

♥24-10-2009 pack our stuff and place our stuff in the lobby before we went out again. i finally saw more stuff i like but. because the second day, we never went up to shop, we was almost like only shop in the ground level. cus hy say it dont look like there's things up stairs. which the last day, i told her we have nth to do so just go up and see. (: i like there. ♥

finally bought a cape, that look similar to the shawl i bought in BKK last yr. (: my mum threw it away which only god knows why!

pretty hydrangeas survive in KL! amazing!

the messy rm when we check out.

SUBWAY is cool over there. they have vans that go ard announcing and i suppose u can buy from them oso!

ok, i wanna migrate there. and be a farmer.



im jus kidding.

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